Wednesday, March 29, 2017

100 days of meditation that didn't happen

I took the photo below on January 1, the day I started what I hoped would be a 
100 day journey with meditation.  It ended around Day 5.  
I have very bad anxiety, and I was hoping that meditation would be something I could use 
as a tool to stay calm and/or bring myself back to calmness when needed.  
When I was on maternity leave I bought that book, plus a whack of other spiritual 
books in hopes that I would find something to help me.  So far I haven't finished 
any of them.  But with meditation it's the same as it's always been - my mind can't 
focus on being calm and quiet, my inner voice won't be silent and continues its 
never ending negative monologue.  I've put the book to the side, and I hope 
that one day soon I can try again.


What I have accomplished though, since January 1, is practicing yoga every day.
I'm taking 1-3 classes a week, and practicing at home the other days. Some days at 
work I do a quick session if I'm feeling overwhelmed, but that will probably stop 
because I just moved desks and now I have someone sitting to my side and I'm 
not sure I want someone staring at me while I do poses.
Anyhoo, I'm so proud that I've been able to commit to daily yoga every day so far this year.  
My initial plan, like the meditation, was to aim for 100 days, but now I'm planning 
for each day, every day, for all the days.

"Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured."
B. K. S. Iyengar

Friday, March 24, 2017

Sunday Dinner - Sausage Pie and Armenian Orange Cake

Both of these recipes came from Best of Bridge cookbooks from the 80's.  The pie 
especially had a retro feel, I thought.  It was fairly easy, and very tasty -
 the dough, unlike the Nigella Lawson savory pie I made a few months ago, uses
 the Pilsbury tubes of dough for the crust.  Simple.
It was a big hit, and I would make it again.


Dessert was an Armenian Orange Cake - something I've never heard of before.  
The method was what drew me to the cake - you make a crumb mixture out 
of the usual cake suspects - butter, flour, sugar etc with some orange zest thrown in, 
put half in your pan, and then to the rest you add sour cream and eggs, pour it over top,
 and bake.  It was good, but so rich.  So, so rich.  The kids were sort of meh 
on it, and The Mister couldn't even finish his one piece, but The Grandfather 
loved it so much he took all the leftovers home.  
I don't know if I would make it again, but that's just our tastes, nothing against the cake.  


Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Stuff to read, see and do - 1


I love pretty much everything that Zoot writes, but this one really struck me when I read it - Morality and Poverty.   So many people seem to think it is their job to judge others and tell them how to live lately.  Why is that?

Another one that got me in the feels is Angry Bees from Hillary. I can 100% relate with this - I went through a stage where I didn't want anyone to hold The Girl but me - I was convinced anyone else holding her would fall and hurt her.  Anxiety sucks.

I laughed until I cried - Bad Lip Reading - Inauguration Day.

I am very into calming music and nature sounds to help keep my anxiety levels down.  I really like the recordings Moby  released - ambient music that he's put on the internet for free.  So awesome.

I forgot to buy baking soda last shopping trip, so this homemade baking soda body scrub will have to wait until next weekend.

“Go and make interesting mistakes, make amazing mistakes, make glorious and fantastic mistakes. Break rules. Leave the world more interesting for your being here. 
Make. Good. Art.” ~Neil Gaiman

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Chili Cheese Dog Bake and other recipes we've tried lately

Have I mentioned lately what a joy it is to cook for my children. No? Guess why.

(pulls out own hair and screams internally)

Kids, man.  WTF.  Work all day, come home, dash into the kitchen to make them a healthy-ish, usually delicious dinner, and they complain, turn up their noses,  whine, and the little one tosses hers on the floor.  The big one probably would, if he thought he could get away with it.

Can't give up, can't stop of course.  The Beasts need to eat.
Wasn't someone working on a pill or drink that would replace the need to eat food?  
How is that coming?



Chili Cheese Dog Bake - from Buzzfeed.  The Boy said - "I don't want to make you cry, so - " and then he did a "sideways" thumb.  I didn't cook this quite long enough, some of the dough was a bit underdone.  It was ok.

Sheet pan chicken fajitas also from Buzzfeed.  These were good.  Even the kids ate some.

I truly wasn't sure how the vegan cauliflower wings would be received, so I only made a quarter batch, which was a big mistake.  THESE WERE DELICIOUS.

The moment I read the recipe for these flourless sweet potato brownies I was in the kitchen cooking sweet potatos to make them. No one in the family would eat them but me.  They were pretty tasty; you aren't going to fool anyone into confusing them with real brownies, but they weren't bad.  My tasters at work were silent.

Slow cooker salsbury steak is a bit on the processed side, with onion soup mix in the patties, and the sauce made of jus mix and cream of mushroom soup, but it was easy and pretty tasty.  A winner with 3 our of 4 of us.

Hawaiian grilled chicken was a hit with everyone, and super easy.  Just dump a bunch of stuff over some chicken, marinate overnight, and cook the next day.

I had really high hopes for these sausage and mushroom pizza bowls but it was not meant to be.  The Boy convinced himself that they would be awful, even though he loves pizza, and I served it with bread for dipping and/or spreading.  The Girl flat out refused it.  I was too annoyed by their reactions to enjoy it, but The Mister had 2 helpings, bless him.

This week we are trying a new pasta recipe with chicken, a vegan curry, orange baked chicken, and nachos.  What's happening in your kitchen?

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Book Club - Shrill by Lindy West






"There is not a thin woman inside me, awaiting excavation.  I am one piece.  I am not a uterus riding around in a meat incubator.  There is no substantive difference between the repulsive campaign to separate women's bodies from their reproductive systems - perpetuating the lie that abortion and birth control are not healthcare - and the repulsive campaign to convince women that they and their body size are separate, alienated entities.  Both say, "Your body is not yours."  Both demand, "Beg for your humanity."  Both insist, "Your autonomy is conditional."  That's why fat is a feminist issue."

"As a woman, my body is scrutinized, policed, and treated as a public commodity.  As a fat woman, my body is also lampooned, openly reviled, and associated with moral and intellectual failure."

Brilliant book.  💛